Judy Meibach

How can I still love you
when I don't love myself?
I did love you, I do love you,
but I needed you
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I am a different kind of feminine -
an aberration.
A woman, but not in the conventional sense of the word.
Men see me as an anomaly,
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The hunger within is hard to describe.
It's a void that consumes me
side to side.
It's not just the food that I crave.
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The foliage in the park is stunning. Cherry blossoms are blooming. Their smell radiates across the densely populated garden. Men, young and old are sitting on the dark green benches which have been newly refurbished, reflecting on the meaning of their lives, as they take in the splendid day that they are spending in this often desolate park.

Cherry blossoms bloom
Men sitting on park benches
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My journey takes me
to the center of my soul
to a place I don't
want to be -
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I am alone.
I am no longer with my lover.
We love and love forever
from afar, but
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I feel so lost,
so alone,
disconnected from the world.
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Angry at you because you did not really pay attention to me.
Because you did not know how to show your love, because you
Criticized me and chastised me for all the things that I
Did or did not do. You made me feel like I was not
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I need a muse
Something, someone
To inspire me
The poets that I read
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My poetry is my salvation
that releases me from my captors
the demons that have enslaved me
all of my life.
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Like a pendulum,
or a metronome,
my moods swing -
backwards and forwards,
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I am a dreamer -
but so was Joseph.
He dreamed of being
a star amongst stars,
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I am late to work. It is Monday morning - manic Monday morning; It is amazing that I got out of bed in time. 7: 30 AM - yes the sun is up, but I am not. Places to go, people to see.

People rush to work -
Frenzied emotions run wild
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I want you to love me
Be with me as
You used to -
Make the hurt and anger go away!
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I feel alone and so afraid,
no one to hold my hand.

I need to travel life's path alone
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The computer has its memory
stored within a hard drive
containing programs for us to utilize
The programmer implements software
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Given our vaccilating
friendship, relationship
I cannot reconcile
my inconsistent feelings towards you.
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Loving you fills
my heart with joy.
You complete me in so many ways.
You make me feel
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January 9,2011
I will be a half of a century -
Should I not be
twice as smart
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Eating and sleeping are things
I like to do,
but I'd far from consider them pastimes,
I don't think you would,
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